Tuesday, July 29, 2008


Literally..... there was a 5.4 today, about 20 miles from my work. When you grow up here in California with them... they are more fun than anything (unless they are very serious).

The most interesting thing was I had a classroom full of 7 year-olds who didn't flip out!!! It was the 1st one that they had ever felt and they remained calm and collected... well as collected you can be in the 2nd grade! LOL!!

Monday, July 28, 2008


Has struck my family again... my paternal grandfather has terminal cancer in his right lung. And while at 92 years old, your life expectancy isn't great.... why cancer?

Couldn't he have died in his sleep instead?!?!?!?

Wasn't it enough to go through when my step-dad died from cancer?

I'm not strong enough to do all of this again... it brings back too many painful memories... I can't

Saturday, July 26, 2008


Apparently has some speculation about them using IVF to get pregnant with their recently born twins. Good.for.them!

I'm glad that they were upfront and honest with the fact that she needed fertility drugs to ovulate not like some others ::cough-J Lo-cough::

While I don't think that their reps have confirmed or denied the story, I'm still proud that two of the most gorgeous parents in the world are helping to break the myth about fertility drugs and infertility.

Some blogs and info on the topic;


Us Weekly
EXCLUSIVE: Actress Angelina Jolie's Twins Conceived Through In Vitro!

Forget Mother Nature – Us Weekly reports in its new issue, on newsstands now, that Angelina Jolie and Brad Pitt turned to fertility treatments to quickly conceive twins Knox and Vivienne.

"They conceived through in vitro fertilization," a well-placed source within their camp tells Us. "They both desperately wanted more babies soon."

The chance of having fraternal twins at Angelina's age (33) naturally is under 1 percent; with in vitro, the chances are 25 percent. Says Dr. Arthur Wisot of L.A.'s Reproductive Medical Group (who did not treat the couple), "We live in an era of reproductive freedom, so anybody can do anything they want within legal limits."

See photos of Angelina Jolie's pregnant with the twins.

The actress chose the procedure (which can cost around $12,000 a pop) so "she wouldn't have to deal with the stress of trying to get pregnant," the source tells Us. "She could just knock it out."

Indeed, Jolie has spoken about her goal to do just that.

"If we're going to have 10 kids, we'd like to raise them while we're young," she told Elle U.K. last year. Brad Pitt turns 45 on December 18.

A source adds: "They were too impatient."

Knox and Vivienne – born in Nice, France on July 12 – join the couple's adopted brood of Maddox, 6, Pax, 4, Zahara, 3, and biological daughter Shiloh, 2.


Bada that is!!!

BadaBing327 (aka Jamie) got her BFP recently and I wanted to say CONGRATUALTIONS!!!!! You deserve it!!!

H&H9 months!!!

Tuesday, July 22, 2008


(Not TTTC related)

I feel that I have made a mistake in my career choice.... I don't think that teaching is for me...

I have had the WORST couple days overlapping with my master teacher before she goes on maternity leave (possibly Monday)... trying to do a good job as a teacher is hard enough, without having to worry about it being "her" class.... and "her" students.

I am going to be doing 100% of the work while she is gone; daily teaching, lesson planning, field trips, library, computers, homework, grading, assignments, assessments, placements, recommendations, parent conferences, administrative meetings, walking them to the bus and lunch... there is no end. It's a "real" teaching job, except for the fact that I will only get paid 1/3 of the traditional teacher's pay and that it's my "student teaching"

I have had such bad days trying to do everything "her" way and to make sure that I keep her happy.... the kids are confused as to who to listen to and what to do (so am I... it's tough understanding what to do when you don't have the time to read the materials and are reading someone else's plans.

I wonder if it's too late to change my major.......?

Thursday, July 17, 2008


My DH (and in this instance it means damn husband) feels that I am smothering him and that he feels that he lives in a "half-way" house because he needs to keep his mind off all the things that he can't have; caffeine, alcohol, tobacco... you know- the HARD stuff!

I haven't said anything about him drinking and smoking through the entire year of TTC. The RE says that he can't do those things and he CAN have one serving of caffeine a day and a drink a week (not really anything, but it's something!)

I have a hard time sympathizing with him because all those things he can't have- I can't either! Not to mention that once I DO get pregnant, I STILL can't have... then comes nursing (because in my ideal world I want to breastfeed for as long as possible.... so when all is said and done I think I will have gone on 3 YEARS w/o all those things that "normal" people do.

Yeah buddy... I feel your pain (not)

Wednesday, July 16, 2008


There isn't anything really wrong.... except that I am totally bitchy because I am on my period and in cycle #13. I had a very LONG day with 20 seven year-olds, I'm tired (very) because I stay up to see my DH when he gets home, instead of going to bed when I should (how am I EVER going to get my ass knocked up if I never see my husband?!?!? I guess my only chance is when I am Oing on the weekend. NICE)

I'm trying my (fat) ass off to get into an injections class BEFORE I start cycle #14, because otherwise I have to wait for cycle #15 to start Clomid+Repronex+HCG... As it stands right now, if I O on cd18 like the last couple months I am one day, yes... ONE DAY too early. The nurse said that she would make an exception if I start on Aug 14th that when I come in for the class on the 16th they could do my ultrasound. So I am taking B6 and going to use progesterone cream to make my LP just ONE day longer so that I can start on cycle #14... or I can just keep worrying about it enough that I O a few days later.... maybe.....

On a completely different note... I was in AM/PM earlier in the night, and there was a HUGE woman (pregnant and fat) getting herself the worlds BIGGEST SLURPEE! That is so nasty! I haven't had one of those since I was twelve and let me say "thank God!" because they can't be good for you! I know that I am not the best person to talk to about weight and eating healthy, but that was just ridiculous!! It made me so mad! I had my infertility goggles on and seeing a very pregnant woman getting a huge cup of sugar-watter with artificial coloring made me so jealous.

When will it be my turn?

Sunday, July 13, 2008


In my car that is :(

I was rear-ended at a stoplight today. DH was driving and MIL was in the front seat. It was so loud that I thought that my entire rear end was gone... We were pushed into the car in front of us and they went into the car in front of them, so four cars total.

I felt bad for the guy that hit us; 18, on his way to work, goes to school full time (reminds me of me) and it was his first accident :( then his parents showed up to check on him and make sure that we were all alright (my mom has done that too)

Now the hassle is getting my front and rear ends fixed; it will be about $3,500 in damage when all is said and done because the front and rear bumpers have holes in them from the screws of the licence plates.

MIL was funny trying to get out of the car after it all happened. She was quite flustered and couldn't figure out how to unlock the door (she can't do that normally) and she was getting more and more upset that she couldn't get out. I couldn't help her being that I was in the back seat... I tried and tried... but when I finally got out she looked out the window and said "I can't get out!" and all I could do was say "I can't get you out either" because DH had taken the keys out of the ignition and I couldn't reach the lock button-Sorry ;(


Party that is!!!!

I had no idea that it was coming. Yesterday was my birthday and DH threw a GREAT party for me. It was too much fun!!

I did have a moment.... while everyone knows that we are having TTTC... not everyone knows that I filled my Clomid, Repronex and HCG prescriptions... and before we left the house... they were on the counter.... we weren't planning on telling everyone that we will be starting treatments (see post below)... the first thing I thought after "OMG!! It's a party!!" was "where are my prescriptions?"

Couldn't find them.... dug through the trash twice and everything... just found them in a cabinet on the bottom shelf... because NOBODY could remember where they went.

That would have been an uncomfortable call to the RE!

Thursday, July 10, 2008



I know that it didn't take you that long to get pregnant...

And I know that I have been trying for or five times longer than you ever did...

I also know that you "just had sex" and didn't even know when your "good timing" was...

I know that you are worried that the fertility drugs will cause my husband and I to end up like John and Kate + 8 (who I love by the way)

But.... you have to respect my decision and support me, you don't have to agree with it... After all... you know more than my fertility doctor... but please... If you can't love my husband and I enough to respect that this is what we need to do to get pregnant, then we can no longer be friends.

I guess all those times I stood by and watched you make what I thought were very bad decisions, and said nothing, because I love you and want you to be happy... were in vain.

I hate to have a friendship come to an end over something that seems so trivial... but it's not. This is very important, if you can not support my decisions as I have supported yours; we're done.

This is our life and our decisions, and infertility is hard enough to deal with. I can't carry any more weight, I just can't... something has to go... so you are either with me or against me on this. (I'm hoping that you are with me... because life would be sad without you)

Wednesday, July 9, 2008


Explains it all when it comes to our infertility... While I'm not excited that we have no real explanation for why we are not pregnant yet, I'm glad to know that couples with "unexplained" infertility have the highest pregnancy rates.

BW-Good for both of us. My thyroid was fine but she said that she wants to monitor it more closely than my PCP because she has thyroid problems and knows how they can change and effect fertility, but my last 4 levels have all been stable and normal.
Physical exam- Good... there was no blood in either (use your imagination....yuck)

We were given the options to move right to IUI or try Clomid+Repronex+Trigger&TI and we chose the timed intercourse. I thought that when we finally got to this point that I would have been ready to jump into an IUI but, it just didn't feel right.

The RE was so nice and seemed so confident that we would get pregnant (possibly on our own before we start the Clomid)

I have to wait for August 19th(unless there is an earlier slot due to a cancelation) for my injections class.

I asked about just Clomid ans she says that the Repronex helps keep the thick uterine lining when taking it with Clomid-Cool.

So it looks like the earliest that we will begin treatments, based on my cycle history is the middle of September... We may change our minds about trying an IUI between now and then... but I doubt it.

I also thought that if we had been given an "unexplained" DX that we would continue to try on our own... but with DH's feet still hurting from the arthritis, the sooner we can get knocked up, the sooner he can resume his Enbral. I told him that his feet are more important, but he refuses to listen to me (not a shocker! LOL!! The men in his family are all like that-stubborn as a donkey!) and he won't take them because it will lessen our chances and we are still worried about birth defects.

Monday, July 7, 2008


Well.... I never really believe those people who say that they "have been just, so busy!"... but here I am... one of them! LOL!!

I haven't even been able to Nest these past few weeks!! Bummer!!! :( I guess I will have to catch up when I get a chance, I just hope that the next few weeks slow down a little bit

Friday, June 27th-Took my little sisters to Chuck E Cheese's and they spent the night before we go back to school
Saturday- Carted the girls all over town to run errands and do crafts
Sunday- Baby shower (stayed till about 9:30pm... having fun) then went to the in law's house to replace a light and tend to the front yard for the big 4th party
Wednesday, July 2nd-Inservice all day at work/School, went to a friend's house for dinner
Thursday- Set up my classroom and got all the stuff ready for the 1st day of school, pre-4th BBQ at my cousins house
Friday- Happy 4th of July!!!
Saturday- Poker party and the UFC fight, pick up my anniversary cake top
Sunday- Celebrated our 1st Anniversary!
Monday, July 7th- 1st day of school and our actual Anniversary
Tuesday- Presentation, paper and final exam for my Masters class
Wednesday- RE appointment
Thursday- Back to school night
Friday, July 11th- My 25th birthday.... I don't think that I will do anything except sleep! LOL!!


Today is our 1 year Anniversary!!! Wheeee!~!

We went to the Melting Pot last night for dinner and ate way too much food! YUM!!

I still can't believe that it's been a year already!

Saturday, July 5, 2008



I hate it... have always hated it... but I'm gonna give it a try.

I'm 2DPO and wishing that this cycle works so that we can skip this whole "needing fertility treatments" thing and just get pregnant already.

On the bright side... today at the 4th of July celebration I was sooo happy to not be huge pregnant because I would have died of that heat!